in the 9th grade my friend told me that i walk down the halls like i could beat someone up and right now i'm thinking about what exactly he meant by that.
right now i'm sitting in my room that hasn't been clean since last wednesday and i'm looking at dried flowers from a wedding who's marriage didn't last a year and i'm thinking about how tomorrow is monday
tomorrow is monday
tomorrow is monday and i get to talk to my best friend
and tomorrow is monday
right now i'm thinking about the way Nelson always says 'thank you' after he reads something and how i love classical music but i never say that when people ask me what kind of music i like
right now i'm thinking about how my mom is stressing out about me graduating and right now i'm thinking about how i just re decorated my room and i'm not even going to be living here 6 months from now i have a plan
i have a plan
i have a plan but i dont' know what to do in between
in between i get so stuck
it's raining right now and i hope it's still raining when i wake up
should i go to first period tommorow
i'm sorry mom and i'm sorry dad but imma be gone soon
i'm thinking about my dog and how i worry he's going to die sad and about how i bought brand new paints and i haven't had the time to sit down and paint and i just want to paint and do art and draw and let my mind wonder onto paper i want to create i want to create i want to make something new
i have a couch in my room that i never sit on
and my sister is going to be alone in high school next year and right now i'm thinking about how ty sent me a letter all the way from mexico that took a month and a half to get here and all it said was "i love you & i wanted to make sure you got a flower today" and how i just got new sheets and how rilo will reach up and hold my hand and how eddie is less than a month old but she holds your finger so tight and that is such a subtly beautiful thing
i hope it's still raining when i wake up
I love this. This is real.
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful and
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the wedding that didn't last a year and Monday and the plan and whether or not you're going to first period and the desire to create, to make something new.
You're on the creative writing first team.
if Nelson does this prompt next year, this should be one of the examples.
ReplyDeleteI love how you write. it's so good and different and refreshing
ReplyDeleteHoly cow. I think this is one of my most favorite things I have ever read in all of creative writing
ReplyDelete"how i love classical music but i never say that when people ask me what kind of music i like"
The intro and the outro were sooo good.
ReplyDeletei am absolutely breathless. this very well may be the best thing i've read in a very very long time.
ReplyDeletethis was beautiful
ReplyDeleteI don't even know what to say, so I will just say
ReplyDeletethank you.
I don't know how you do it
ReplyDeleteMake so many people feel so many things so personally
All with just how you're feeling right now
And this was just beautiful.
And I could hear Nelson saying "thank you" and the part about the rain
And the people in your life.
And I'm just going to keep reading this post.
And your dog.
ReplyDeleteSorry, but the line about your dog gets to me.